19:40.

I am lost. I miss my old self. I miss my innocence. I haven't felt like myself since last November. Ever since the day Elijah walked away. I can't deny I miss him. Life's been nothing but a pain ever since he left. If only I could go back in time to that day, the day everything fell apart. I promise I would've done it way differently. I miss him so much.

8:20.

 I don't know what life is trying to teach me right now, but either way, I don't care anymore.

4:47.

​Ever since Marwan & I stopped talking, life’s been nothing but weird. I hate to admit it, but I do miss him more than life, & I just wish he’d give me one last chance to make amends, but he chose to walk away, the moment I decided to change for the better. It is what it is, I guess. I guess fate had a different say in this, & I’m not gonna fight my fate anymore.

​15:03

Today, I chose silence. I’ll never talk about my feelings anymore. 

7:30

​I’m very content with how everything’s going right now. I’m a lot happier, healthier, & so much more optimistic about the future & what it holds for me. I can’t wait for the upcoming days, to see what they hold🪐✨.

00:56.

 Ugh. Where do I start? A lot of things have changed in the past few months. I went from someone who never achieved their KPIs or work targets to one of the top achievers on the floor.

I forgot to mention that I also got run over by a car, which is unbelievable. I can't believe I had to face death for the fifth time. It feels terrible, frankly. It did open my eyes, though, but it's ugly. It's horrifying.

Regarding Marwan, I have no idea what's going on in that guy's mind, and frankly, I don't care anymore. I will not drain my soul over someone who does not know what the fuck he wants. I'm done stressing over him. If it is meant to be, it will be, and until fate decides it, I'll treat him like a friend. It's way better than breaking my heart with my own hands.

Dear me,

I love you. Be at peace🖤.

21:39.

 I need to stop purchasing clothes online, that's for sure. I mean, I've already purchased enough. Next month, I'll get myself a new phone. I need to get rid of everything that reminds me of my family. As cruel as it may sound, this is the only right path that I need to take in life. They provided me with nothing but heartache and trauma, and I don't need that in my life anymore. I'm a much stronger, more independent, healthier individual now, and I'll never look back.