The fact that I'm getting used to my job and learning more and more about each day is fascinating. Maybe that's truly what's meant for me. I'm happy. I can't wait to see what the future holds for me. I'm starting to feel grown.

Dear God,

Thank You🖤.

 

 

MLI.

 Life has been changing so much in the past couple of days. I can feel myself gaining more confidence. I'm making new friends at work. I'm getting so much better, but I can't help but overthink. The fact that I have to talk to people and try to convince them to get life insurance that costs thousands of pounds just to be able to get paid is just frustrating.

Dear God,

Please, help me.

The hardest pill I had to swallow this year was learning that no matter how good you could be to someone, no matter how much you love them, they can and will turn their back on you and there’s absolutely nothing you can do but suck it up and keep moving forward.

 

 I'm pretty happy currently. I feel alive. My work training is going perfectly. Maybe it's what's meant to be for me. God's plan is much better than everything and anything I've ever planned for. That's for sure.

Dear God,

 Thank You for everything. I'm grateful for everything You've given me so far. Please, continue to bless me now and forever. I know You'll never leave my side.

​الحمدالله بجد؛ النهاردة كان يوم ناجح أوي، أنا مبسوطة أني هبدأ شغل، حتى لو مش في مجالي. المهم أني ابدأ أقف على رجلي، مش هتفرقً بقى، أصل اللي كاتبه ربنا أكيد أحسن بكتير من اللي كنت مخططاله، ربنا أكيد أدرى بالخير ومكانه. الحمدلله على كل حال

23:01.

​I hope it isn't so selfish of me to choose to ignore the cry of others and instead just sit somewhere quiet. Just focus on the starry night-time sky and forget all the things that hurt. I hope it's okay to choose not to fight any more battles and just attend to my wounds and collect my scattered pieces, to curl up in a ball and count my heartbeats until I fall asleep.

I hope it's okay to choose not to feel anything sometimes because I learned that some pain can break a person forever. I'd like to be saved from that. I'd like to believe that despite everything I've gone through, all the mistakes I made, and crying in the rain, I still deserve a second chance at happiness.

9:55.

 I decided to stop overthinking, and let God choose the right path for me. Maybe working for a life insurance company is what's meant to be for me.  I'm sure it'll help me gain confidence.

Dear God,

Please, help me.

الزعل رجع ياكلني تاني، وبجد معدتش عارفة أعمل ايه، أنا مش عايشة العيشة اللي مريحاني، حاسة أني بجد هفقد الأمل قريب. أنا متضايقة من كل حاجة، متضايقة من تحكم بابا فيا وفي مستقبلي لمجرد أنه مش عايز يدفعلي فلوس المواصلات, يا ريتني كنت عايشة في عيلة تانية، عيلة بتحترم طموحي، بتحترم أني عندي مستقبلي، ولازم أحقق ذاتي.... يا رب حلها من عندك بأي شكل، أنا عايزة أشتغل أبدء أصرف على نفسي، وأنا عارفة أنك تقدر على كل حاجة يا رب، أرجوك

يا رب، ساعدني أرجوك، أنا مش عايزة أفقد الأمل

هو الواحد عايش ليه بجد؟ أنا زهقت.

 

Fresh New Start.

 I woke up today feeling accomplished. I woke up feeling euphoria rushing through my veins. I have not felt that way in so long. I'm very proud of the strong independent woman that I'm becoming. I'm growing as a person. I'm learning new things about myself. I now know that I'm capable of greatness. I can do everything I want. I have God on my side. What more would I want?

Dear God,

Thank You for everything You've given me.

Please, continue to bless me each and every day🖤🦋.

​الحمدلله دائمًا وأبدًا❤️.

Another Day, Another Success! ❤🦋.

 

23:52.

​كأن بجد ربنا محبش اليوم ده يعدي غير وأنا مجبورة الخاطر؛ الحمدلله بجد، فاضل بس أني أجهز نفسي كويس للموضوع اللي جاي ده، وأنا بجد لو حصلت عليه هفضل أحمد وأشكر ربنا طول عمري. أنا بجد حاسة بربنا معايا، حاسة أنه عايز يجبر خاطري. حاسة أني من ساعة ما أخدت القرار اللي متعلق بالدين ده، وأنا في نعم وبركة ملهاش آخر. الحمدلله بجد، يا رب دايمًا أفضل مبسوطة كدة على طول، يا رب أفضل ناجحة ومحققة كل اللي نفسي فيه يا رب❤️. 

9:16.

 Yesterday was full of surprises, indeed. I know God is on my side. That's more than enough because I know He'll lead me to the right path. He'll help me through it all. 

Dear God,

Thank You. Please, continue to bless me every day like You always do.

A Blessed Day, Indeed❤️🙏🏻.

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❤🦋.

 

.❤ مش هقول غير أني بحب ربنا أوي، أنا بجد ممتنة للي حصل النهاردة، يا رب الأيام اللي زي دي تكتر كمان وكمان يا رب

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New Month.

 It's the first of August. I broke down last night at the idea that none of the newspapers I contacted were hiring. It's just devastating. It's like I have to overthink; otherwise, I'll never be myself. I just kind of wish it wasn't like this. I wish I could live without having to overthink every little thing in my being. I just hope everything gets better eventually. I really hope so.

Dear God,

Please, help me.