Removing Edges.

Yesterday, Marwan told me that I put edges and boundaries between him and me, and I don't know how to feel about it, am I really doing that, though? Maybe, just maybe. Maybe the fact that he rejected me made me unconsciously put boundaries between us fearing that he'd think I'm too much. Anyway, from now on, I guess, I'll be more open about my feelings and thoughts when it comes to him. He will never judge me. I just know it.

00:46.

 I love how improved I've become at work. My numbers are getting so much better, and oh, did I mention that I achieved all the KPIs last month? For the very first time, I got my full salary, plus some incentives.  I can't believe it, honestly. Plus, Marwan and I are getting very close to each other, I mean yeah, we're not a couple, but I'm still closer to him than anyone else. I have a soulmate. That's great, and enough, I believe.

2:30.

 I love the way I've been changing lately. I'm getting closer to my roommates, making new friends at work, taking care of myself way better, and just happier, I guess. I mean yeah, I got dumped on my birthday, and I'll never look at my birthday the way I did before, but who cares? I'm still happy. I just need to heal, and I know I'll be okay. Maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow, but eventually.

20:24.

 Life has changed so much since the last time I blogged down my thoughts. Marwan and I dated, and then he dumped me a week after. I have no idea what the fuck is going on in that dickhead's mind. At least now I know how it feels to be dating him, and no, thanks. I don't want that, not until he fucking heals from his past traumas. 

Aside from that, life is going well. I'm doing a great job at work, I'm making new friends, and I'm starting to get new clothes for myself. Life is good. I mean yeah, my love life is beyond terrible, but we don't men, do we?.